127 Days

I want to take a moment right now to talk to you about Father Time. Because I have nothing better to do and a lot of time to do it in.

Which is all his fault.

For the seven years I attended secondary school I have wished and begged and pled for more time - more time to finish assignments, more time to study for exams, more time to catch up on my reading and of course more time to sleep my lazy ass back to enthusiasm.

And that crotchety, night-shirt wearing paedophile beat me in the face with his "be careful what you wish for" clock and cursed me to live at home for another year while all my friends get to move on to university.

I have to wait an agonising one hundred and twenty seven days until I can finally experience true independence, when I will leave the country and make a fantastic plethora of mistakes that will haunt me for years to come in ways I can't yet fathom.

It's going to be amazing. But there is still this massive wait before I get to travel off to unseen lands. And by unseen lands, I mean Scotland. Which I suppose isn't exactly unseen. I mean on a good day you can see Scotland off the coast of Ireland (where I live), which is only like a 12 mile gap. But there's all that water in between. So my family can't get to me. Thank sweet Christ for the Irish Sea.

Now I should maybe preface what I'm about to say with the fact that I love my family. I really do. But I've spent a lot of time with them already in my life and I firmly believe that a person isn't supposed to spend more than 18 consecutive years with their families or their primal instincts will force them to tear each other apart. I don't want to fight my family! There are five of them and I know I could take at least four of them. My dad has a bad hip and my mum and two of my sisters aren't quite blessed in the muscles department.

The main problem would be my second oldest sister, Eimhear. She has rage on her side. Plus she does sports! How am I supposed to compete with that? She would kick the ever loving crap out of me, and my religion prohibits my crap being outside of me in any other fashion than pure and simple defecation in one of Armitage Shanks pristine whites.

So obviously I can't stay with the family too much longer, but I don't have much of a choice. I've had to busy myself. I could get in shape! I could learn a language! I could get a jump on my Psychology course for next year and do some independent learning!

Because, as a great man once said:

When life gives you lemons, be glad it was just lemons and your parents weren't mugged and killed in an alley way

- Bruce Wayne 

As I write this I am surrounded by various objects that represent the different hobbies or interests I've adopted over the last year in order to kill time. I see the weights I bought to get into shape, which I then put down when I realised weights are heavy. I see the psychology text book I bought because I thought it was really interesting when I flicked through it in the shop and have since not opened. I see stacks of books waiting to be read which I haven't since I discovered the joy of Pirate Bay and Game of Thrones.

I want to kill time, I really do. But he's a tough bastard and I've been saving my energy for the post-apocalyptic wasteland science fiction novels and movies have assured me is bound to happen sooner or later

"But James" I hear you say "why don't you just get a goddamn job and quit whining". Well aren't you just a lovely little thing. You see, I do have a job. I stock shelves in a budget supermarket type place. I'm pretty sure my official job title is "stock bitch". So, unsurprisingly, like 70% of the world, I hate my job and thus time is eternal during my shift.

Another way Father Time has screwed me over.

But I guess there's not much I can do but gnaw off my arm trapped between the rocks of time and make a movie about it. The arm in this metaphor being my laziness, the rocks of time being the time I have to wait to leave this godforsaken hell hole and the movie being...I don't know, a colourful spin on my "tragedy" which I can use to make money?

I'm bad at writing...